odds and ends
Today was my monthly doctors appointment and unlike the last appointment where Ro and I were so excited to see the ultrasound we didn’t ask any questions, we managed to clear some basic things with her like how much weight I should gain over the next 18 weeks (15 pounds) and if there’s any food I should absolutely not eat (swordfish). We also found out that barring any complications there would not be any more ultrasounds thanks to the limitations of my insurance, so as Dr. K pointed out I really don’t want to see another ultrasound of Aditi. It was a little disappointing but on the other hand we got to hear her heartbeat for the first time and that was awesome.
Today was also uncharacteristically warm - 18 degrees centigrade - fabulous! It’s supposed to snow on the weekend since this is Indiana and the weather is famously schizophrenic here. However since I hardly left the house in January and had to do little or no walking outside the house, I have to say I miss the blanket of snow covering the ground. It made everything seem so mysterious, cosy yet menacing. I also liked to make the analogy that like me, the earth was waiting to burst forth and bloom ; )
This bit of the pregnancy is getting to be a little anti climatic…there’s no more morning sickness, which disgusting as it is provides a focus for your emotions, you’re just waiting for it to be over and in the coming months there is nothing much that will change. I will get bigger and bigger and sleeping will continue to get more and more uncomfortable. I don’t know, the warm weather has stirred up some longing that it’s June already and Aditi is here.
I’ve also heard some good and bad news, someone I know is pregnant (yay!) and someone I know just had a miscarriage. This is maybe the second or third time that things haven’t gone right for this person and I just don’t know what to say. It’s sometimes so hard to commiserate long distance, in person one doesn’t depend solely on words. I know when I speak to her she’ll sound brave and upbeat but I also know it’s a front and I don’t know know what to do with that.
