In South Bend it’s so cold and snowy I can’t believe that less than a week ago I was in Guatemala, where the sea was warmer than the pool.
In South Bend it’s snowing today at the rate of an inch per hour. In the morning the flakes were fat and heavy and you could see the wind driving them, moving them along. Now the flakes are so fine it’s like we’re being dusted with icing sugar.
Today the nurse called me and said that the quad screen came back fine and everything is ok. I knew that we weren’t at risk for Down’s Syndrome but taking a test, any test can be pretty nerve racking. I wasn’t sure what I wanted to do if the baby had Down’s Syndrome - I didn’t want to have an abortion but I’m not sure I can handle the challenge of raising a child with problems. Of course, it could still happen but as of now, for the time being I will not have to contemplate the failings of my personality.
So Ro and I have a tentative name for the baby, but ever since we found out it’s a girl we’ve been going over our list of names again and again. It’s almost like finding out you’re pregnant again. I know its so nuts but in the ultrasound I swear I think the baby looks like me :)
The last month has been peaceful. My pregnancy has been going by the book, nothing unusual. I’m so glad to be at home with all my stuff. I’d been thinking of going down to India but now I don’t think so. I wish I could be with family and friends but I think they would all prefer to see me post baby. I’m waiting for Amma to come of course but the ways thing are and expected to be this trimester I’m going to be fine and then of course it’s too late to travel.
