"I was an intelligent feminist, well versed in body politics, and the media misrepresentation of women, etc. etc. etc. That almost made it worse, because not only did I spent most of my days hating my body and obsessing over how other saw me, the rest of the time I had to spend guilty and hating myself for being so obnoxiously and irrationally self-loathing, thereby having to slosh through my every waking moment immersed in some sort of complicated double-shame-body-drama from which I had no escape."
