julia.

Ask.   // this is my tune for the taking
also shoutout to my friends BEN and JERRY those guys are ALWAYS there for me.

also shoutout to my friends BEN and JERRY those guys are ALWAYS there for me.

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— 4 days ago with 201 notes

ok so today I

- didn’t kill anyone during prod

- went to a party for a little bit

- had a conversation that didn’t involve me sobbing hysterically

- cleaned up my stuff in the dining room even though I was literally having the panic attack from hell

- applied to a class that I really really really want to take

- tried not to worry about school?

- went to the gym

- only had one cup of coffee! and 2L of caffeine free diet coke and like a million cups of decaf tea but STILL.

and K brought my last stuff from DC today so now I have MORE BLANKETS basically I have a BLANKET MOUNTAIN.

unfortunately I have my first stress rash of the semester alllll over my arms and I haven’t even stepped foot on campus yet.

sometimes, like all the time, I really really really miss B. I honestly feel like he would give me good advice like he always did, even if I didn’t realize it at the time. and he’s the only person who has ever fucking listened to what I was actually telling him and caring about what I was actually feeling as opposed to being like, well it can’t be that bad because of X Y Z. also props for dealing with 16 year old me! but I can’t like randomly call him.

anyway I have an appointment with a new dr on thursday which is 5 days away. which isn’t that long I guess.

— 4 days ago
dearloveimsosorry:

cherry-and-also-bomb:

"Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let the pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness" Kurt Vonnegut 
AVAILABLE HERE: https://www.etsy.com/shop/LemonsaltCrafts?ref=search_shop_redirect

I really love this

dearloveimsosorry:

cherry-and-also-bomb:

"Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let the pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness" Kurt Vonnegut 

  1. AVAILABLE HERE: https://www.etsy.com/shop/LemonsaltCrafts?ref=search_shop_redirect

I really love this

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— 5 days ago with 42605 notes

I wanted a drink so badly last night and that really scared me.

like I’ve only had one drink this whole summer and that’s why, it feels sooooo damn good, like probably better than klonopin* and much less effort than whatever I was up to in high school. but I know that this would destroy things.

*which obviously my dumbass psychiatrist failed to refill for me despite my explaining that I couldn’t sleep all damn summer without it and am now calling A at 1am every night basically hysterical (and also with my head about to break open because have you ever tried not to cry for half an hour) before maybe finally getting some damn sleep.

— 5 days ago

wearing this stupid fucking sweater in the middle of fucking august in my damn third-floor room because it makes me feel less alone

— 5 days ago
I am gonna make it through this year if it kills me / I am gonna make it through this year if it kills me

I just have to get to

1. the close of the issue—8/24

2. my stats final—9/5

3. berkeley for break—10/21

4. thanksgiving break—11/21

5. end of the semester—12/17

6. my birthday—1/22

7. spring break—3/6

8. end of school forever—5/6

9. graduation—5/18

— 5 days ago
#and then who knows 

The summer ends
And we wonder where we are
And there you go, my friends
With your boxes in your car

And you both look so young
And last night was hard, you said
You packed up every room
And then you cried and went to bed

But today you closed the door
And said, “We have to get a move on”
It’s just that time of year
When we push ourselves ahead
We push ourselves ahead

And it was cloudy in the morning
And it rained as you drove away
And the same things looked different
It’s the end of the summer
It’s the end of the summer

— 2 weeks ago
#every summer 
I want to go home so badly

I want those highways and that coffee, but maybe I really don’t, but I do.

— 2 weeks ago
"It is June.
I am tired of being brave."
Anne Sexton, from The Truth The Dead Know (via thatkindofwoman)

It’s August but whatever

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— 2 weeks ago with 23379 notes